Last year when I went to renew my drivers license I was totally bummed that I could not pass the vision test. Try as I may I could not make out those letters. This event seemed to start me on a downward spiral of the aging process; or, at least, my thoughts on that process. I was convincing myself that I might as well just hang it all up and go into retirement. Well, that option was not very attractive to me, but what was I to do when this body would not do what I wanted it to do? I was diagnosed with dystrophy of the cornea many years ago and it just got progressively worse. I had cataract surgery several years ago and that did not do that much for my vision.
As synchronicity would have it, someone came into my life only long enough to tell me about her doctor and teacher at the Eye Associates of NM. and then she was gone, off to do other things. I did get in to see the doctor who founded the clinic and he immediately referred me to the corneal specialist who looked at my eyes and said you will have to have surgery sometime and you might as well do it now. Well, he is one of the few doctors who are doing this new corneal surgery and I found him right here in Albuquerque. I had the first implant in April, which did not take but the one in May did take. The vision improvement was slow and I was still wondering if I would ever be whole again. Slowly I began to regain my vision and I began to become more hopeful for an active life again.
I guess on some level I set an intention to continue to heal for the next thing I knew I was going to a sweat lodge with my friend Lydia and she mentioned that her new TurboSonic machine was in and wouldn't I like to come try it out. Well, sure, I am always open to experience the newest and the latest. When I went in to use the TurboSonic, Lydia asked if I had any condition that might qualify this treatment for Medicare to pay for some sessions. Well yes, I had this white water river accident 22 yrs ago that left me with a right arm and shoulder that had restricted movement. Following an evaluation we began PT treatment 2 -3 times a week. We were both amazed that this body wanted to heal after all these years.
So these two events proved to me that it is NEVER too late to heal; it is a life long process. And to think that I was beginning to believe that it was over and time to throw in the towel! Well I did not, and I am back in the game of life to it's fullest.
Then in January I get this invitation from Dr. Barbara Dossey to be a part of a Holistic Nursing Delegation to China. I read it and put it aside until Kate came in and I showed it to her. Her remark was "and you are going of course" ? No, I can't go and spend all that money, that's my kids inheritance. Actually, in retrospect, it was more about me still feeling too old to go to China. I am so grateful that Kate responded with "and how many more times do you think that you will be invited to go to China this lifetime?" That was my wake up call, the light bulb went on and I saw things differently. I no longer saw myself too old or too unworthy to take this wonderful opportunity.
So off to China I go with 18 other holistic nurses and what an experience that was for me. The time was just right for I returned with an inner calmness and self confidence.
Barbara Mader
9/25/09
Image courtesy X-ray: NASA/CXC/JHU/K.Kuntz et al.; Optical: NASA/ESA/STScI/JHU/K. Kuntz et al; IR: NASA/JPL-Caltech/STScI/K. Gordon
Blessed by Brugh
Just before Christmas, the 22nd to be exact, I took a friend to lunch and for some reason I was going on and on about my teacher Brugh Joy. I shared what he meant to me and the things he taught me. I studied with him back in the 80's and even brought him to El Paso for a seminar.
My first introduction was when my massage therapist, Maria Elena Martinez, took me with her one New Year's to a huge workshop in Asilomar, Ca. We sat on the floor up front with our feet almost in the strings of the harp. We did not want to miss a thing and we didn't either. There were hundreds of us and what an energy field that was; wow!
I liked the experience and attended again the next year then went on to a week long intensive at his retreat in Prescott, AZ.
It was at this intensive that I could see the energy coming out of my hands. I was so excited that I can
remember Brugh saying "Barbara you might become addicted to this energy work", and he was right. What a wonderful thing to have a passion about. Even now, so many years later I still feel his presence with me when I am working.
Brugh was an exceptional teacher and touched so many lives. I am just grateful that the touched mine so profoundly. The fact that I was thinking of him and talking about him the day before he passed away
tells me that we are indeed still connected on some level. (He transitioned on Dec 23rd.) He truly blessed my life for which I am so very grateful.
Barbara
January 11, 2010
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